What value do I have?

 I had my third back surgery last Tuesday the 17th and now I am at home recovering.  When you have back surgery you come home with a very long list of things you cant do (which is about anything).  So for the past week I have had to rely on Jody and the kids to do almost everything around the house and for me.   As I have laid around and basically been useless I come face to face with the question of where do I get my validation or worth from.  I have realized that I get a lot of my sense of worth from my performance because as I laid in bed or on the couch I began to feel very useless.  When I felt I had nothing to offer Jody I saw myself as having no worth, I was simply another burden for Jody to bear.  Which brings me back to the whole grace thing.   Just when I think I am getting it I see that I have so far to go.  The truth is even at my best what I have to offer is not enough.  None of us can perform our way into salvation, it is only through the grace of God and the works of Jesus that I am saved and my worth comes from Him.  I have value (and so do you) because God says I have value.  God so valued us that He became man and died and rose for our sins.  So as I continue to recover my goal is to allow myself to heal and not try to think of ways to make me appear worthy.   That's not to say that I don't want to help out when I can, I just want to do it from a desire to ease Jody's load not to prove I have value.  I hope you realize just how valuable you are too.